This was the last picture I took of her... (when she typed the final letter written to my wife).

As soon as we get some help for this girl we will continue with the free videos!! NOTE: It never happened, so far anyway!
CAUTION: If things like rape and abuse are bothersome to your mind, and you do not want to read on.. There is another way you can help us directly, then we will help her! READ THIS... (click here if it is still a link). 

(Sorry, this "help" link was erased in 2004... it had no effect and cost too much to continue serving).

The first we tried was to get her a PO box to send money directly to Tamra, but nobody did. Then we tried a fund-raiser, it cost us ten times what it made... We then went back to the church people!
This plan did not work either, I guess nobody really cares that much, (other than to read about it)... Normally when you see a million hits on some subject it has a positive effect on something, (but this did not have the desired effect... only perverted interest I fear). It is possible people did not trust me or my family to help her... Also possible those who have all the hours it requires to read these letters had very little extra money!

By now I am afraid she is either dead or all her memories have been erased... Her last message directly to us was a single statement I think she would have followed through on if she was still alive! (She said when something good happened in her life she would contact us and "close the book" or at least say what part of those letters she wanted to appear for all to read. AND, if something else bad happened she would contact us for some more help or for more of the letters to be published). Either way she said she would send an email or something when she turned 21, which was years ago by this update! (I do not know who killed her... but it might have been the drug people or the Hell's Angels, it might have been the law or her family too... just the original published letters caused so many problems to so many people it is hard to narrow it down very far! And if some of the other letters got out many others would need to disappear as well). My family and friends that were involved have all said we did all we could do and any help in the future would need to be requested directly by Tamra, which has not happened to date...

  
Whatever the cause, this is what happened... I first bought a post office box for her in Deadwood for people to send money, setting up a form for anyone to say what they were sending within these pages... (also an email address for requesting information or forwarding messages to her). I tested it by stating I was sending a check for $10 to box 35... one other person later said they sent a check for $25. (But they told me in an email a year later that they did not use the form), one other email arrived years after that saying they had sent an amount too large to be recorded on the form, (must have been a joke, they typed a 1, followed by too many zero's to be copied)... Other than that final message most people just read her letters and told me they felt sorry for her, to this day I still do not know what to say to Tamra about that! (In fact I was somewhat relieved when I was ask by others not to try contacting her). Some were even afraid more harm would come to all of us if we did... When you post information about people abusing four year old children, allowing truckers to rape young girls just for fun or especially for money! When you tell how the courts put someone in prison for doing it, then later allow them to go free and start doing it again! When you talk of major drug deals she witnessed or other crimes she knew about! AND... when this involves motels used as whore-houses or rich powerful people who have much to gain by stopping her from talking... almost anything could happen! (The only actual harm that came her way while under our care was a foolish accident).

While hiding she was injured in a fall and I brought her to our home one final time. My wife could not get her to go to a doctor and she finally went to an old friend of the family... (A local county sheriff officer who Tommy said was as square and fair as we would ever find). He said very little at the time, but warned all of us this would have no good ending no matter what)... He was right! My son was the most experienced medical person in our family and he wrapped up Tamra's hand. The swelling went down and it healed before I finally talked her into calling her mother. (I later found out she was then placed in some kind of protective custody for a short while, but her family was hurt by all the information she ask me to post on the Internet and things changed for the worse soon after). I do not know why the sex talk was aimed at me or my son rather than those who had actually had sex with her... some since early childhood? We figured the cops and courts seem to like involving people other than her family for some perverted reason, maybe just because of their family connections with the cops. It could also have been because I have been too out-spoken in the past with some of the cops, while trying to get our local system to be less corrupt. After they got even with me they seemed to just forget about her... and soon after she was back at home again.
In the meanwhile I had been charged with contributing to her being bad or something along that order, (a lawyer friend of the family said they were trying to get her to admit sex, harm, or some wicked crime against me at this time... I was secretly given the actual tape recordings of this happening from a friend in the local court system. Although the people doing this questioning seemed somewhat unprofessional... especially considering her situation and history, they obviously had a goal in mind. (To make both of us appear wicked and take the attention away from her family). They tried every trick they could think of, and she continued to repeat I had only helped her, that I had never hurt her... And that they were wrong to keep referring to our relationship as anything sensual). Later, when they told me they were going to drag her back to court and bring everything up again I knew she would be hurt by her family even more... They pointed out the fact that an x-ray showed she did had a cracked bone in her hand from the fall so I was guilty of hurting her in a way... I plead guilty to this charge of contributing to the delinquency of a minor to end it right then... so I thought! I was ordered no contact for a year and had to pay some kind of court cost of $43... (They also proved to me she was not 18, and would not be until the following year). When I played the recordings to others who had helped her they were also surprised about her true age, and most of the men were wondering why they were not involved in the questioning as well. (Maybe they were and I only received the recording about me, but that is doubtful... Most were powerful people that have never caused any trouble with our local police, I was the only one to ever hurt them that I am aware of. The major issue many felt at the time was about that $20,000 placed in her name after the dog injury). I figured she would be safe until that stupid family got her to sign over the money she had coming... After she did that they would let her go and we could help her start over in life! (That is not what happened, I could not find her by then). Years later, when I was joining the local fire department, that charge was brought up and it was implied by a local cop and his friends that I was guilty of something sexual... If there is a god the people behind that will surly suffer some day for that one!

It is also possible someone with professional training in dealing with such things had her say something bad about some of the men outside her family that had helped her during this time of hiding, I have heard of such behavior in the past... Tamra even wrote one letter about that exact thing, but at the time it was not posted on the internet because I could not verify the facts. (In this letter she describes how the police officer continues to address a wicked issue or a crime as if he knew how it happened or who did it in what way... In time she was influenced into seeing it that way as well, and the entire time they told her she would remain in custody and continue to be questioned until she said that was actually what happened). It is possible that something like this could have happened but I doubt it... There may be a few bad cops who only like to use the badge to get even with people who have hurt them, but there are others who would stop them when it was not true and they knew it... I think this all happened mostly because of the large sum of money involved, maybe the family was offering to share some of it with some greedy cop! If the major concern was about the money her family wanted, then it would be foolish going after someone who had helped her through a bad time in her life! (It is also possible they thought I wanted some of this money as well... several times she did say in the letters to lawyers she wanted to pay me back for some of the things I did for her, (although I did not think any of them were ever made public)! It could be if they were this may have made me a target as well). 
At the time of this court thing I saw her records from birth... I found out in the following year she would actually turn 18, I also knew from her letters that both divorced parents and all of their friends would settle the custody battle over the control of her by that time... (Also control over the $20,000 in her bank account, sealed until that age)! After that year was up I did hear from her once, (or my son did anyway)... She said she was still in trouble with the law and would remain under the control of her mom for a while longer... I think she used the money to move into a better trailer and buy her mom a car! I know she did not get to have her eye fixed, or her scars repaired! She found out about the post office box that year and I think she knew there were at least two checks in it too... She must not have got them, ours was never cashed. I have never been able to find out anything about her again after that either! (As soon as the most wicked in her family got the last of her money I hope she was left alone, but I fear the worst).
All the lawyers I contacted about this could not help her or her boyfriend because of some sexy picture taken by her computer camera when they got engaged. I have never seen it, but was told by someone inside the court house that it is enough evidence to convict both of them on some crime. I did speak briefly to Tamra about it once, she only said it was a stupid thing to do, but she thought at the time it was something that her boyfriend needed to stay true to her while away in the Army... It was a picture of them having sex, but not intended for anyone but him to ever see. She even said she once made a printing, but it was destroyed when someone else saw it somewhere at his duty station. She did not know it was still save on her computer or some floppy disk either, and could not believe they had tried so hard to get either of them in such a wicked way, while doing nothing to help her.
(I have been involved with pictures and video of such things a number of times in the past, mostly due to the naughty people connected to the Sturgis Rally or history of the wicked past of old Deadwood)! All of those people were later sorry they had done that... various reasons, but the resulting damage was always the same. It is the woman that needs protected in this issue, only the male is turned on by such things later, I have not personally known a woman other than Tamra who needed or allowed such a reminder in print, they can keep such feelings in their mind, only a man needs something to look at... And too often such a thing is looked at by others in a perverted way too, this is when it becomes an evil thing. (All those with evil minds, reading it with evil thoughts... See such things differently, and become part of that evil. It spreads from there, soon after the evil is all anyone can see. This may have been the cause when the local courts and cops went after me... they were caught up in the evil of this picture in their mind. These kind of people need more to do while at work maybe... or need to find a different direction in their wicked life).
This is a bad thing to do at any age, and a crime in America until one is an adult... All the times I have witnessed it the people were over the age of 18. All but one were over 21 in fact, some were over 30... I really do not believe there is any point in a relationship, no age that it is a good thing to do... sex is a private moment and should remain in the mind. (For sure not on a computer... think about what could happen to such a picture after you are dead). Someone will be going through your files looking for the history of your life and find something often mis-understood instead, that part of your life dies with you, make sure it does!
I remembered the look in the eyes of a women in the courthouse when I was told about this picture of the couple having sex... she did not say what it showed, only that these people were wicked and I should not help them! Afterwards when I had this discussion with her about it I thought for the first time about the real age of Tamra... She had first told me she was 18, (a lie her boyfriend told her to say due to the laws keeping her from him until that age). My wife worked with her boyfriend and liked his abilities and his attitude about life. They had many discussions about this girl before we actually met her... We knew his age was 19 because my wife got him hired at the Franklin and handled his ID paperwork, she also thought they had grown up together and were in the same class at school. (We found out later they got to know each other while very young by waiting together at the bus stop, not in the same classroom). When Pam bailed Derek out of jail we were told they were wicked people! He tried to be honest with her but was also trying everything he could to protect this girl from her family as well. After that Pam thought this girl was just "making up" the sex stories to get away from a bad life with a broken family. I have never been able to prove what Tamra said about some of the wicked men who abused her and understand very well how others may have caused her to say bad things had happened to get pity or something. But I do not feel this is how it really happened in real life... only Tamra knows this for sure. Of all the stories she placed on the Internet, the one about meeting Jesus caused me to question the truth of each event in her life, just as my wife did... but I think all the rest of the stories were basically true. My wife and one of my children took the other viewpoint and said it was all one big story to gain freedom and once she was an adult it would all be looked at as just her imagination or something. Pam also said the people who I have hurt would get even with me in any way they could... she thought they would also try to hurt our family as well. Another one of my children agreed with me that this not only happened as she said... involving the incest with the father, uncle, and brother... even the sex arranged by her mother's boss that was condoned by the local cop. (The stories of sex with truckers and other unknown people contracted by her mother at the hotel she worked at was about the last straw, when it became totally unbelievable by many members of my somewhat naive and innocent family).

It is possible that some of this terrible life was exaggerated or changed around, but some of the details she typed about what happened, (especially at almost 90 words a minute), could not have been made up... Even by an expert with many years of experience in such things, let along a girl that did not even have a life outside her small circle on this earth. (And when her boyfriend and others told each story they had heard about from her or others with such exact details... It is just not probable they could have all been able to lie in such an accurate way about something so personal).

She almost told me the truth about her true age after her boyfriend was in jail, but I guess she still wanted very much to return to him. She also thought she was pregnant by this time too, and it was important that they someday be given a chance together. (She may have lost that baby due to the extreme living conditions while struggling at my land or some other hiding place she had with the various people helping her! I never really forgave myself for her loss, although she did... saying only it may have been for the best). I was wrong not to find someone powerful enough to get her to a "non-welfare" doctor and I always wished I had enough money at the time to make that happened in the professional manner she deserved. (The welfare system in South Dakota may have took that baby with a vacuum cleaner, I will never know)! I am fairly sure they would not have been able to determine if she was damaged too much to carry or birth a baby on her own either. I am very sure they would not have cared about her though, and neither would anyone I knew in her family! Not long after meeting her I was once told by someone who liked my wife at the court house that she would not be 16 for a few more months. In the same conversation I was told many other twisted lies and I was convinced not to believe any of it. Later on I was shocked to find out about her age... I thought I knew her well, she seemed much older at the time, maybe it was just all that she had been through!
This young girl acted and reasoned like a girl in her late twenties possibly... She in fact thought and spoke like someone who had been an adult for many years! I guess some people mature much sooner than others, it depends on how soon they are forced to grow up. They say girls grow up faster anyway, especially those who are abused, before and after puberty!
This girl had been abused since she was 4 years of age... by every male in her family too. (By fifteen she was given away for sex by her own mother at the work place while working as a maid... at times to men she didn't even know, if her mother was too tired for sex). It is also possible she was abused by the step father from birth and only had memories of it from the age of four... which is about as far back as any adult can normally remember! Although she stated she was not badly affected by this trauma... she could not speak openly about it at first. At first it appeared she felt the cause of her sexual problems seemed to be related to her feelings of being less than normal, the scars on her face made her think she was not worthy of good love from any man. She mentioned being damaged beyond repair, physically and mentally. I do not think she was damaged sexually, losing a baby at 15 is common, (especially during a fall while struggling to stay alive, and not having much strength from eating too little). This is why I took her into my home and complicated our lives even more. I don't think the scars on her face made her look bad either, it gave her character if anything, and could also be covered up almost completely with some makeup. I think the tear duct in her eye will be her biggest problem in her life, too bad those in control of her money could not see to that at least! I think the biggest problem she faced at the time I knew her was the bad sexual memories. (The research I did on the Internet said those memories needed to be drawn out of her, discussed at great length with someone she trusted, and not someone who was using her for sexual pleasure). I ask my wife and all other women I knew about what to do,  including the nuns and my mother... some had advise, other were afraid to even discuss it in any detail. I spent several months trying to figure out what to do, often for 10 to 15 hours a day, I dedicated every possible hour to doing it, or researching about what I was to do next. I gave her every test possible, she passed them all, I tried a number of approaches to every problem she spoke of, even got in trouble with my wife, my priest, my mother, and the courts in my quest! We dealt with everything from the bible talk of honor thy father to the reason for sex, even very personal things were talked out... Not a single thing that had ever happened to her was left unanswered or not addressed, on the final night before she gave herself up she still had a complete and undivided love for her first true love, had forgiven all who had abused her, and was ready for whatever life had to offer! (Too bad others dropped the ball right after that).
We both spent endless hours going over every part of her life, especially that which appeared on the Internet. I even tricked her into believing some letters were lost and needed retyped, just to compare for some change in details. (The main letters were then read and explained to others a number of times directly by her. She was questioned several times by critical people, yet each story remained as the original). All details were accurate and as complete as she could remember, there was much hope at the time that it would help many others... Getting it out in the open helped her a great deal too, come what may... (Little did I know how much we would all need to suffer for years to come in almost every direction). A number of times this was addressed, and each time there was one fact that always ended the discussion... A very open-minded local preacher was the first to state that phrase: If even one girl in the entire world was ever removed from a similar situation at any time in years to come it would be worth the pain suffered by all connected to this writing. (It is also possible someone may prevent such perversion from ever starting as well, although maybe nobody here on earth may ever know the total truth about it... But that should not stop any attempt to correct this unbelievable wrong).
Once some of the letters were approved for the internet I was a bit surprised there was so little real concern from the writings, and so little done about it. I did receive two letters asking about her... one wanted to marry her, the other just wanted to live with her! (One other man said he sent a check for $25... that was all that happened in all the years after these pages appeared... still getting hits though, but not as many as before)! The bad cop was beaten to within an inch of his life later, also lost his job. (But I do not know if it had anything to do with this case... people like that normally have other bad things they have done that catch up to them at times). Her family went on with life as usual I think, too bad about that too. As for those who did me harm, I cannot go back to church and take communion with them, I just do not want to be around such people. (These kind of people will continue their ways and they will get what they deserve, one has already lost his wife and no longer attends Mass, the others will follow in time... I only hope they are all gone before my wife, I sure do miss attending church with her). If people want to call me perverted or say wicked things about trust and honor I can only feel sorry for them. (They either do not know me very well, or are suffering from some wicked sin and are attempting to hide it by pointing in my direction. This is something children learn to do and some people never grow out of it. When you openly address such delicate issues involving sex... and you have a wicked mind. It is you that has a problem with the topic! It is no different than calling someone stupid when you were young... the typical response is to make you appear more stupid than they are, even if it is a lie! And if someone calls you a liar you must prove they are a liar to clear up any bad thoughts about you). I cannot stop such foolishness and will let those kind of people dig their own holes. It is possible I have hurt them in some other way that they could not argue with and this is only their way of getting even. If the health and well being of many other girls was not at stake I would have pulled all these words shortly after I saw what my family would have to go through while they were being offered to the world. After all, I only did it under direction from someone that may know more about such things than almost any of the rest of us will ever know, (a badly damaged girl who was then sexually abused for the next thirteen years)! At times these days I still think of Tamra, especially on her birthday. I still buy her a present and place it with the others behind my computer room, I think there is quite a pile of them now. (Somewhere in Nebraska we also have boxes of Derek's stuff she had sent to our address from the Army, and a few duffel bags containing everything she did not take when she left here for the last time).
In the future, if I ever hear anything more one way or another, I will place it at some other link below...

For now most links will no longer send you to the right pages...

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Thank you for caring,
Larry